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Episode 41 ~ Shiva


Episode 41 ~ Shiva

“I had a really well known guru author once tell me, 'Don’t label yourself as Spiritual Artist, don't go down this path that you have gone'. He said, 'you are spiritual, just make music. Just make music.' ” -SS

It has been quite a few months without a fresh episode release due to the fullness of life evolving and expanding for host Robert. However it was worth the wait for the special guest we had. Someone who provides a very important aspect to the QuestHands show. This Episode features Sarah Shivarani, more commonly known as Shiva or DJ Shiva. Ring a bell? Yes! Her music is featured and sampled throughout the podcast. She is Iranian, born in England, raised in Florida and currently lives in Los Angeles. 

“It dawned on me that oh, I did this to myself, and it woke me up and snapped me out of this negative spiral I was in; and my life took a turn at that point in my life.” -SS

Shiva was constantly inviting me to visit her in LA, however with Robert’s cruise ship contracts and unpredictable freelance life; as well as not being based in Toronto for over a decade, he encouraged her to visit Toronto, Canada. He was light about it, having that fun ‘daydreaming’ energy to the desire, as she had never been yet. Well who woulda thunk what proceeded next. Shiva was invited to play a set on one of the outdoor stages at this years Toronto Pride Festival.

“I had to make this music that has been calling me since I was a child” -SS

This manifestation was truly remarkable and a perfect example of ‘Law of Attraction’. Robert and Shiva met at an Abraham Hicks Law of Attraction Cruise 4 years ago where they only spent a few hours physically engaging through a dance party and chatting briefly afterward. Their resonance was enough to desire to keep in touch through the cosmos and cyberspace. Shiva did not even submit a proposal or application to perform in Toronto. IT JUST HAPPENED. . .

“The more you can chill out the better, thats the funny part, the work is chilling out” -SS

Shiva was happy and tickled with alignment with certain numerology patterns occurring with the ‘Number 5’. This being the 41st episode, thus 4+1 = 5. Her birthday was also a few days later where she turned 32, and 3+2= 5. She also got #5 on the ‘QuestWheel’. The number 5 is the most dynamic and energetic of all the single-digit numbers. It is unpredictable, always in motion and constantly in need of change. Although it is molded from an almost equal mix of masculine and feminine qualities, in general the 5 is slightly more feminine -- albeit a daring, tomboyish kind of feminine, with nothing demure or submissive about her. Perfect for this time and space in Shiva’s life, especially how numerically the name ‘Shiva’ is also a 5.

“But really, what it really means on a deeper level is, Joy. I want to feel joyful wherever I am at, and I know that the more that I feel that, the easier the other things will roll on in. So really the immediate success is, am i having fun today no matter what happens, did i enjoy myself, was i nice to myself?” -SS

Robert and Shiva seized this unique opportunity to not only catch up as friends but to artistically collaborate in live performance seeing they are both performing artists. It been a tiring yet profoundly multidimensional enriching experience for them both. Truly spiritual siblings as mirrors to each other. The fullest of days balancing, brainstorming, rehearsals, performing, taking voguing class with Iconic Leyomi, attending a Vogue Ball, visiting family, being a tourist, recording this podcast, and somehow eating and sleeping a bit. Total ‘Carpe Diem’ of seizing the day. 

“Love it in the becoming, love it as its growing. It is constantly evolving and the more we can love it where it is, the faster it can evolve into something better, which incorporates self acceptance and unconditional love. -SS

Shiva is committed to conscious living yet is forever a playful child seeking out the fun and joy in her experiences. She always knew she wanted music in her life and continues to have generous unique ideas in how to share music as meditation and medicine for us all to receive. It will be exciting to hear and experience her next level of expansion and future collaborations with Robert and his creative collective, ‘House of D.A.M.’

This episode marks the first one featuring a fellow ‘Abrahamster’ (someone who follows the teachings of Abraham Hicks as both Robert and Shiva do).

You can listen, support and follow Shiva through her Official Website or jump directly to your favourite social media accounts below:




iTUNES for her 2 EP’s ‘Dark Moon’ & ‘The Art of Allowing’:

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The theme of this ‘Weekly Quest’ is CAREER. Fine tune your focus. Think about the one thing, that if you did every day for a year, would absolutely take you to the next level in your career! Not 3 things or 5 things, but 1 thing. Once you have decided this one thing, create a time block for that one thing. Whether it is 10 mins or 1 hour or 90 mins, a focus block, put away all distractions. Put your laptop off wifi, your phone in another room and you set your timer. Dedicate yourself to that focus block as if you were having a meeting with someone. Take your meeting with yourself just as seriously. Dedicate yourself and your time to that one thing you said you were going to do!

*Music featured throughout this QuestHands podcast is by Dj


Episode 40 ~ Susan Gold


Episode 40 ~ Susan Gold

“Somebody once said there is no bad clay, there are are only bad potters. But I counter that by saying, ‘No there is bad clay, but a bad potter doesn’t know the difference between good and bad clay”. -SG

This Episode features Susan Gold who is part of QuestHands history being the first direct blood relation to a previous show’s guest. Marimba Gold-Watts from Episode 36 is Susan’s daughter. Just like where Marimba lives in NYC, Susan is from the east coast but has been in San Francisco for 44 years now. She worked for The San Francisco Unified School District (SFUSD) as a Teacher for 25 years, sneaking Art into English and History whenever she could.

“I started out as an art teacher, but soon found out that I could do more art if I wasn't directly teaching arts. So I taught english and history and incorporated a tremendous amount of arts into my curriculum. And also I found that the art of teaching is an art form. It’s a genuine art form and you are an entertainer. You are on a stage with your students.” -SG

Located in Golden Gate Park lies The Sharon Arts Studio where Susan currently spends all her time as an Independent Ceramic Artist and studio teacher. She has been part of this building and community for 21 years. You could say she found home. Some people feel she does indeed live there for the amount of hours which she puts in. From all her years of sculpting with her hands she has no problem opening bottles and jars at home. Susan also shares some interesting general information about sculpting in regards to the ratio of male to female, countries and traditions. This episode was actually recorded in one of the classrooms that Susan teaches in, which made Robert happy for being in such a creative artistic space.

“It can’t be just San Francisco that changes, it has to be more wide spread because if there is a more widespread community here, we will get more and more people who come here to take advantage of that support (understandably) and then the whole burden of support will come onto us (San Fran) as oppose to other cities.” -SG

It was fun for Robert to observe how aspects of Susan reminded him of his friend Marimba. She also reminded Robert of his own mom. Both these woman truly grateful to travel the world and see different countries and cultures due to where their ambitious children were living through studies or employment at the time. A favourite place Susan got to see was Cape Town, South Africa, which she described as a similar city to San Francisco but on steroids in comparison to the characteristics.

“I wish that people can overcome their prejudice, their narrowness, their fears and reach out to one another in a beautiful natural peaceful way” -SG

Susan is a friendly, responsible, diverse teacher, mother and artist. It was humbling of her to reveal that her greatest strength is also her greatest weakness ‘Perseverance’. As sometimes we humans need to know when to stop trying and let go. Susan loves spreading enthusiasm and sharing in the pleasures of her students discoveries.

“When some obstacle comes up I don’t think, oh it’s all over, this is the end. You know, I think, I’ll get through that and then there will be another one around the corner to overcome.” -SG (reflecting on her Father’s phrase: ‘That’s life, one thing after another’)

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The theme of this ‘Weekly Quest’ is HEALTH. Make sure to exercise but don’t overdo it. Eat lots of greens, yes kale really is good for you. Be conscious with your body, check in with your body as often as you can. See where you are holding tension in your body and let it go.

*Music featured throughout this QuestHands podcast is by Dj Shiva




Episode 39 ~ Kyle Banks


Episode 39 ~ Kyle Banks

“Just take a beat to think about what’s next”. -KB

This Episode features the multifaceted artist and visionaire Kyle Banks. What is interesting is that Kyle was scheduled to be featured on Episode 3 a year ago when Robert was visiting his sister (who Kyle worked with), however something shifted on the day. All in perfect timing, life offered another blessed moment in time. Here they are in San Francisco, city of diverse free thinking and forward values.

“Even if something negative is happening to me, just trying to understand why it is happening, what is happening and how I can grow from it is a positive take on a negative situation. It makes life easier to deal with.” -KB

Kyle is deep. No really. Besides his introspective conscious reflections on the human psyche and how we interact with one another, he is vocally a ‘Bass’. At the time of the recording he was in The Lion King US Touring Cast. A show he was able to be part of in Las Vegas and Broadway. An actor, singer and dancer (at heart), Kyle is a multifaceted person with many skills and passions. He testified to be blessed to be doing exactly what he wants. Born and raised in New Orleans, Louisiana; he carries that southern slower chill charm. Robert was enwrapped in Kyle’s chill vibe and resonated on similar values and opinions, especially the need for greater awareness and open dialogue on our mental health. He also had a nice clear reflection on how ‘hard work’ is healthy when it’s inspired by ones passion.

“I used to try to block out these huge segments of time where I would meditate for 10 mins and try to keep my mind from drifting off to anywhere but it is really not what it is all about. It is about just finding that inner peace even if it is for 10 seconds, just that awareness.” -KB

Kyle used his hands a few times throughout the episode to offer himself subtle ‘golf clap’ applauses. He can he silly but more so beholds the traits of courage, sensitivity, freedom of expression and compassionate love. His family and friends are important to him, along with his openess to meet new people. He is a very patient person and is learning to demonstrate that more with himself these days.

“When I think about the wealth of friendship I think about friends that accept me for who I am without judgement. They allow me to be who I am and I feel it does not come with any expectations. I can always tell when it is authentic.” -KB

The beautiful thorn in his side is due to his work founding, creating and sustaining a new platform called, ‘The Tenth Magazine’ along with co-founders Andre Jones and Khary Septh. A project of collaboration facilitated by many it is an art and culture publication that documents the history, ideas and aesthetics of the Black LGBTQ community. Finally an exciting outlet in having a space to come together as artists, intellects and thinkers contributing back to our own community. Even more profound to take back control of the images that are being portrayed in media and other publications usually by white men. To take back the power and tell honest stories. It is the most fulling work of Kyle’s life to date. He is building it to be a successfuland sustainable project as he departs The Lion King Production. In 2017 their vision is to expand with more digital content, film and partnerships with Slay Television.  Robert has put it out there to collaborate one day, especially with Robert’s passion of Vogue and how it influenced the name of the Tenth Magazine. You can find ‘The Tenth Magazine’ in bookstores and newsstands throughout the USA and soon the world. For more information on this exciting venture check out:

“When you can stand where you are and find joy, that is the ultimate success.” -KB

The theme of this ‘Weekly Quest’ is ROMANCE. There is no better why than to start welcoming love into your life than by starting with yourself. Date yourself. Love yourself. Explore yourself. Often Romance is starting right into our face but we cannot recognize it. When you are more in tune with who you are you will be more aware of similar energies around you.

*Music featured throughout this QuestHands podcast is by Dj